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"But my faith was never supported by compelling arguments, only personal experiences I interpreted as the intervention of God."That is good enough as well. But you can have your faith supported by compelling arguments, thankfully, there is a very large amount of them. The contingency and the very existence of the Universe itself, with it's laws, order, fine-tuning, beauty, the existence of the human person, who, by it's identity, intellect, moral responsibility and free will, is not reducible to the movement of atoms, are all things that quite clearly point to its Creator.I recommend the book 'How Reason Can Lead to God' by Josh Rasmussen, or simply this article for starters:https://joshualrasmussen.com/articles/the-argument-from-contingency.pdf "I gotta be frank, I don't believe the Church to be a moral pillar throughout history while allowed slavery."Though there were some unfortunate drawbacks, the Church quite consistently opposed slavery starting from the discovery of the Americas. And even when She failed to act or acted badly, She acted against the very principles that She preached, and not in accord with them. The reason why chattel slavery is so immoral is grounded in the inalienable dignity of each human person, a dignity that is not based on their worth in the eyes of others, or in their functional capabilities or how good they are at certain things. It is based on the fact that they share the same human nature, they are rational, intelligent creatures, made in the image of God.Without this grounding of human dignity, the very reason for opposing chattel slavery as so great of an evil disappears- so abandoning faith for this would be like cutting a tree branch while you sit on it. The authority of the Church comes from the fact that Jesus Christ established it and assigned it the mission to preach to and teach all nations on matters of faith or morals.The secular culture, on the other hand, is like a leaf that is blown by the wind in ever changing directions. I wouldn't put my money that the popular opinion happens to get right eg. sexual morality. Peoples moral compass in these types of matters is usually quite easily lead astray. "Christian faith is hard to defend, even the best apologetics can't keep up, in the end its just faith and thats not enough for me"It seems like you have already decided that you don't want to believe, if you prima facie reject every argument that is offered."I need to see a miracle, I need to see compeling historical evidence of Jesus's ressurection."Cool. This is available for free on Kindle: https://www.amazon.com/Investigating-Resurrection-Jesus-Christ-Transdisciplinary-ebook/dp/B0GF89XNT6?ref_=ast_author_mpb Can I ask you a question? Do you think that you, as a human being, have moral responsibility for your actions?Can you have moral responsibility for an action, where you did the only thing you could? If you are determined by the laws of physics, is there more than one thing you could do?