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I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve never lost a child, and as a mom I can’t even imagine. But, in experiencing grief myself (and again, nothing to the extent that you have), I’ll quote myself from past Reddit posts when I say the following. Grief is so lonely. Here you are, feeling like you have just lost a limb and can’t stop the hemorrhage, and others around you are walking past and going about their day to day and somehow not acknowledging or realizing that you have lost this limb, that you might be bleeding out, that you are trying to figure out ‘however will I go about my life now, without this limb?’. It’s one of the many unfair aspects of loss, that you must contain all this suffering that somehow isn’t shutting down the world, despite it shutting down YOUR world. The guilt and anger and sadness was immense. I did slowly come out of it but of course you are forever changed. Everyone is different in how they grieve but in case it is helpful I found the ball in the box analogy for grief to be really helpful for me. I also found Grieving is Loving book to be very comforting (the author lost her daughter at birth). I hope you have access to a grief therapist and can find a group support for those who have gone through this as well. Sending so much love your way.