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OK, first go fully no contact with him. Block him on text, phone, social media. End any location sharing on any device. You need to detox from this guy totally. Block his hideous family and any of his ugly flying monkey friends, too. Second, is there a women's shelter near you? Contact them to see who in your community deals with survivors of trafficking. You need trauma therapy. One reason you ended up with this horrible person is that your "picker" is set to "sex deviant abuser." You want to process your trauma and start to build a healthy life. Until you get into therapy, here's a book to start you off. https://www.amazon.com/Courage-Heal-Survivors-Sexual-Anniversary/dp/0061284335 Third, start investigating if there is a sex abuse survivor's group near you. Fourth, do not get involve with another man until you feel good about yourself. If you want a healthy romantic partnership, it starts with YOU being emotionally healthy. I have cPTSD from child abuse and I've done years of therapy--after wasting years with guys who are substance abusers. My picker was set to "drunk narcissist." But with help, we get past this stuff and can live a good life. Fifth, don't measure your worth by what other people do to you. My mother was an abuser. She was abused herself and never felt whole. But her not seeing her self-worth doesn't say anything about MY worth. "You are a child of the universe. No less than the trees and the stars, you have a right to be here." Get help. I've had 3 therapists and an astrologer help me! You can do this.